First thing first, I’m just recovered from stressfulness
condition due to my psm2, so what I did is I just let myself fail in that subject this
semester, yup, there is how it goes. Maybe a little sacrifice for my own sake, kalau
tak I will be end up crazy kot, only god knows how I feel. Don’t say I don’t
feel anything about that, I just don’t chose to overthink actually.
Alhamdulillah, I just turned 22. Can’t wait to turn 30 soon,
hahah. Kalau panjang umur insya allah. Most of my friend are already settled
down. Some of them got engaged. Some of them got married. Some of them have to
get married, if you know what I mean. Apart from being single, I also being a
part time uncertified counselor. Hell yeah, I love that, hahah. No lah, it just
that one of my roommate really into an adult conversation, so I just shown her
how matured I can be, hahah. I don’t know. Is it I’m just aging too fast?
Because I already sketch my path for my future. And I kind of love it very
much.
Well, recently I have been told by my other friend that one
of my friend tell her she is hurt because of me. That sometimes my jokes doesnt suit her and what I’ve said sometimes broke her heart. Honestly, I’m just
being honest because that is me. But if it doesn’t suit for her, it’s okay
because I can’t change myself just to get fit with people. Because if I do,
that was just me fucking faking myself.
I thought that she understood me, but I was wrong. I know why. Because I can’t predict people. Because I’m
not a fortune teller. Maybe I’m not being a good friend. But believe me
everything I did before is sincere. All the good times that we have is true.
Sorry because always hurt you with the truth. But I think, the best way is I’m
avoiding you so that you will not get hurt anymore by me.
Me? I just have to accept that not everything that I do is
acceptable. But everything happens, shows me clearly who is actually can stand
with me. And I totally appreciated that. Thanks for stay. And you know who you
are.
